Undying ♥

ごめん。

I tweet so much I forgot to blog :S

The Only Exception.

♥,
I yearn for you.
I'm desperate for you.
I need you.
Stop wanting you? Never.

Run.

an·ger [ang-ger]
n.

1. a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong; wrath; ire.

v.

1. to arouse anger or wrath in.

When I'm really pissed off, I shut down.

Not the petty-dismay-kind. I'm talking about the serious-anger-kind.

The kind that doesn't start immediately, but as the result of slow, simmering agitation over time, fueled by persistent nuisance and not helped by thinning patience.

The kind that after trying to tolerate and/or ignoring it in the beginning, yields no better results. That annoyance keeps nagging, moving from the back of your mind then taking center place right in the middle of your freaking face, amplifying its stupidity at the highest volume until you feel like grabbing it by the sides and shredding the god-awful-abomination to unrecognisable pieces so you could stomp it without any mercy what so ever under your feet with all your frustration, energy and being and turning it to disgusting pulp!!

THAT KIND OF ANGER.

Ugh!

untitled.

Lesson #2:

"Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too. Even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling."

Eat & Love

en·light·en·ment [en-lahyt-n-muhnt]
n.

1. the state of being enlightened

Lupita and I hung out at home after lunch today. We pigged out on cheesy and chocolatey junk food while watching 'Eat, Pray & Love'. I finished the book a while back and found it interesting enough to want to watch the film adaptation (although I pretty much skipped the entire Pray part out of disinterest)

The film was not too bad but I could have seen someone else playing Liz. Someone less well known so the every-plain-Jane-has-problems-normalness wouldn't be lost on a well... plain Jane like myself. As human as Julia Roberts is, it's hard to imagine she would suffer as painfully as someone with a less charmed life would. But that's just me probably.

Other than that, the film was a nice way to spend an evening with your girlfriends. There was plenty to feast on, especially scenes from Liz's time in Italy. Mama mia! I would gladly live a life centered on nothing but good food like the Italians! The eye candies? Again, Italy won hands down. There wasn't much offered from India and Indonesia to begin with since most of Liz's worldly pleasures were set in la bella Italia :)

By the way, one line stuck with me like the smell of cigarettes in your hair (quote, end quote Sara ;P) It was one of the earliest uttered by Liz's best friend. The new mother said to her,

"Having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face. You really need to be certain it's what you want before you commit."

LOL.

Now, that is something I would love to put in a nice little box, wrap in ribbons and gift to anyone out there who could use the same enlightenment.

Wouldn't you agree?


xx,
Azreen

Tuesday

wis·dom [wiz-duhm]
n.

1. the quality or state of being wise; knowledge of what is true or right coupled with just judgment as to action; sagacity, discernment, or insight.
2. scholarly knowledge or learning
3. wise sayings or teachings; precepts.

While not doing anything particularly important last weekend, I told Ash I wanted a new book to read in order to fill my time (there was also another reason, more juicy and scandalous -lol-). So I scoured through Amazon and Ash decided he wanted one as well which surprised me since he isn't a big fan of reading but I was pleased nonetheless because that would mean an extra book for me to read later :)

I finished my book this afternoon. It wasn't the most rewarding experience because the book was not as good as I had hoped. Kenzo was napping on my tummy as I read, his warmth ideal since I was feeling a little cold after the heater had turned itself off and I didn't want to move and risk waking him up.

Kenzo woke up minutes after anyway, lazily moving towards his bowls for a quick bite before heading back towards the couch. I scanned the room quickly for something new to read before Kenzo settled down again. I picked up Ash's book and jumped on the couch like lightning, just in time for Kenzo to stretch himself out on my tummy again.

(Oh how I center my Universe around him, I know)

Ash's book is about "An old man, a young man, and life's greatest lesson." It's based on a true story between the author and his dying Professor who taught him in College.

I'm planning to jot down his lessons in life as I read the book to serve as shared wisdom and self reminders.

Here goes, Lesson #1:

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

To be continued :)

Y-E-S

pos·i·tiv·i·ty [poz-i-tiv-i-tee]
n.

1. the state or character of being positive: a positivity that accepts the world as it is.

I want to be a Yes (wo)Man!

Pondering over the 'what if's' in life is exhausting.

Who knows what unthinkable craziness could take place if one takes everything head on. Right?

So, yes! I'd like to say Yes!



xx,
Azreen

ps: Yes, I had just seen 'Yes Man'.
lol